So...last week was a busy week for us in our adoption. On Wednesday I drove from the Ware County Courthouse to the Brooks County Courthouse and then back to the Clinch County Courthouse to have 19 documents authenticated (the clerk of court writes a letter stating that our notaries are legitimate). Then on Friday my wonderful friend Renee' shows up at my house at 6 am to go with me to Atlanta to have our documents authenticated at the state level (the Sec of State says that the clerk of court is legit), only she would not ride with me...she insisted she drive me in her car, with her gas money (turned out to be about 10 round trip)...what a great friend! Well...before we went to Atlanta we had to stop by our caseworkers house in Albany to pick up some notarized documents and then meet another caseworker who had our official homestudy. After a few slight detours we made it to the Secretary of State's office and after about 25 minutes and some really intense anxiety our documents were authenticated. While leaving the Sec of State's office we ran into Mr. Bridge's, a friend of Renee', who works for the DOE. He very kindly bought us lunch and offered some very kind words of encouragement. It was a nice surprise. We had a great trip home listening to some great old music and even detoured to look around at Andersonville Prison (Nerd fun). At the end of that long day God reminded me of what it means to have great people in my life!
Needless to say I was very anxious to get these documents in the mail to our agency. However, there have been a few new developments in the Haiti system and our international social worker suggested we wait a few days to send in our documents and fees (there are some new ones we didn't know about).
Then came my CRAZY feelings...
I have really had a chance to reflect. For the first time in a while I am not at all anxious. However, its been an emotional day...now I am not a very emotional person...sometimes anxious, but not emotional. I have realized that lately I have been carrying around this tinge of guilt that our process has gone so smoothly. I know that sounds CRAZY, but I read and hear all of these stories about how much people struggle and I feel bad that we haven't. So today, with the news that we must keep our documents (that I worked so hard to finish) makes me almost thankful. Again, crazy I know, but its how I feel. I know that God is in control and I know that we have a very long way to go in this process so this is NOT be the last holdup. I am thankful for such a great agency and great social workers. I'm thankful for feeling some new emotions in this process even if it is that I'm sad that my paperwork isn't being overnighted for translation to get us a step closer to knowing our babies. I'm thankful for the $27,000 we have in our adoption account and I'm thankful that I know God will provide the $23,000 that we are lacking! I'm thankful for a God who makes Himself so evident through His word and His people!!! Please continue to pray for Me, Joey, Molly and Lincoln and our TWO children (yes...unless God changes the plans there are two kiddos) in Haiti! God is GOOD and He gives peace that passes all understanding!
